If I had my Way

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w/m Thom L. Inglin


I'm concerned about my lying but I'm frightened by the truth
I'm afraid of getting older but I can't retain my youth
And it seems that life just rolls right on
resisting my attempts to gain control
Believe me if I had my way I wouldn't pay this toll

If I had my way I wouldn't play these foolish games
And if I had my way I would have danced within these flames
But when it comes down to the punch line
And the crowd begins to scream
The refection in the mirror is a nightmare not a dream
and the fear I thought was refuge becomes refuse in my arms
If I had my way I would have come to much more harm

As I pursue my wandering through these chaotic times
The question of my sanity is always on my mind
Could there a reason for my doubt
or is this longing more than I can bear?
Know that if I had my way I wouldn't make me share!

Come to me when you labour
Turn to me when you thirst
Look my way
when it seems that it could not get worse
I'll be there when you're crying
right beside to dry your tears
I will be the friend and lover
you've been seeking out for years

If You can turn me from the self-destructive path I choose
If You can give me shelter then I've nothing left to lose
If You know what I'm needing when I desperately call out for a friend
If I had my way I'd do it Your way in the end!


from chalk, released February 9, 2016
All instruments, vocals and drum programming: Thom L. Inglin



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